Hi everyone on this last Sunday afternoon of April. Can you believe that we’ll be in May this time next week already? I certainly can’t. The weather’s okay: sunny and about 16°C. I can’t wait for higher temperatures though. Anyway, I’m joining #WeekendCoffeeShare today. I haven’t had my afternoon coffee yet, but am likely going to take a break while writing this post to have it. You can have a cup as well. The staff are also trying to get me to try some type of drink that sounds much like what Americans call Kool-Aid: a powdered substance (sugar-free or so I’m told) that you add to cold water and that then creates the flavor of juice. I’m pretty sure I’d prefer plain water though. Anyway, we have this stuff in the apple-flavored variety, so if you’d like a drink of that, get yourself one. Let’s have a drink and let’s catch up.
If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that this week, I’ve been experiencing quite the rollercoaster ride of emotions. Due to a number of triggers, I got to doubt once again whether I want to stay in my current care home forever and, on Thursday, I more or less decided that I at least want to discuss the possibility of looking for another place. I have no idea whether a voluntary move is even possible and it’s certainly not something I’m looking to decide on quickly. My assigned home staff E-mailed the behavior specialist and manager to see if they can discuss the possibilities and process with me.
If we were having coffee, I’d share that I also experienced quite a bit of emotional dysregulation recently. I am having some major flashbacks and identity confusion. It looks like a new factive alter (an alter based on a real, outside person) may have formed recently.
If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that tomorrow, I’ll finally be discussing lowering my antipsychotic dosage with my nurse practitioner. I’ll most likely take the first step sometime in early May. Even though I’m not feeling at my best right now, I want to move forward with it.
If we were having coffee, I would share that I did enjoy doing some polymer clay work recently. Mostly, I just mixed colors. Like I said before, last week, I got the Fimo Professional true colors six-pack, which comes with a mixing chart, from the day center. I love it! My mother has her birthday on Thursday and I’m fully intending on making her a tulip out of polymer clay with all colors I mixed myself.
If we were having coffee, lastly I’d share that I went to Lobith yesterday. It was good being with my husband once again. We got Domino’s pizza and had orange tompouces (a Dutch-specific pastry) in honor of King’s Day on Wednesday. This morning, my husband went out to the local bakery to buy us croissants. Yum!
How have you been?
A Multitude of Musings 
Oh gosh, this year is flying over. I didn’t realise it was May next week. The new drink sounds interesting.
It does sound like an emotional time for you. Sending love and hugs.
Happy birthday to your mother, it sounds like you have a great gift in mind for her. x
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Thanks for the hugs and the birthday wishes for my mother. I will be sending her a book she wants, but I hope to be creating the tulip to go with it as a little handmade extra too.
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Sounds like a nice weekend ☺️
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Yes, it was. Thank you for stopping by.
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I’m glad you enjoyed your pizza! I’m a bit surprised you might want to look for another place since you worked so hard to get there.
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Thanks for stopping by. I worked hard to get my long-term care funding and the one-on-one support, both of which (assuming the one-on-one will continue to be approved at the end of 2023) I will keep should I move. I do agree I also worked hard at getting the best possible quality of life here, but it seems I’ve exhausted all possibilities at improving the situation here and I still struggle greatly with the drawbacks of this place. It could be this is all in my head, of course.
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Thank you Astrid for your weekend coffee share. I hope you have fun creating the tulip for your mother and a great week ahead.
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Thanks for your visit. I am quite sure creating the tulip will be fun.
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I’m so sorry to hear you’ve had such a difficult time emotionally lately and are considering moving to a different care facility. I hope if you do decide to go this route in the end that you can find a really good place to live in. I also hope things will get calmer for you soon.
It’s cool that you ve had fun mixing colours and had a nice weekend in Lobith. 🙂
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Thank you for your kind words. Yes, I really wish I could make myself feel good in my current care facility, but the feeling that it’s just not the right fit for me long-term, sticks with me.
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I find it so hard to believe it’s almost May and the school year will begin to wind down for my boys. I’m so looking forward to summer though and really hope it starts to warm up soon. I keep buying all sorts of tank tops and shorts and yet it’s much too cold to wear them. I do have a powered drink mix that makes my water taste like sweetened ice tea and I love it but it has been so hard to find these past few years. I hope you remember to take pictures of the tulip you make for your mom; I love tulips!
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Thanks for your comment. I’ll definitely take a picture of the tulip once I finish it. As for the weather, I wore a skirt with bare legs for the first time this past week, but really it was far too cold.
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I had to look up what is a tompouces. It looks so good. It kind of reminds me of Napoleons.
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They are very similar indeed. To be honest, I hadn’t heard of napoleons until I looked up tompouce in the English Wikipedia.
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Pizza and croissants sound like divine treats to my gluten-free self right now 😉 I’m glad you had some yummy sparkle to round out your week! I also hope you’re able to find some answers to your questions soon, with a path laid forward that feels good to you. Hope you have a wonderful week ahead!
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Thanks so much for your kind words! Aw, I’m so glad I’m not gluten-free, as most of the things I enjoy include that (including if I’m correct black licorice, which is my favorite candy).
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Yeah, being GF is new to me and I’m still struggling with it. I, too, love black licorice so… ;-/ Maybe eat a piece for me next time? Alas, I’m given the opportunity to learn a whole new way of eating and am trying my best to not fail on the daily 🙂
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Yes, I get it (somewhat). I started a healthy food plan this January (just to be halthier and hopefully lose some weight) and that was quite the adjustment already and I didn’t even have to eliminate any foods altogether. I have IBS and at one point considered trying the low FODMAP diet, but I think it’s just too cumbersome for me. Thankfully, just eating fewer fatty and sugary treats does help me too. Anyway, I’ll eat a special piece of licorice for you next time I get it. Which kind do you like? Or aren’t there different kinds where you live?
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For me, keeping the dietary changes as simple as possible is key…I’m not a “natural” cook, I need recipes and guides to make a *real change or I just fall back into what’s familiar.
Any black licorice will do, I’m not too picky 😉 Thank you!
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Ah yes, I understand about the need for recipes. I can cook simple meals from very detailed, step-by-step recipes, but that’s about it. For me, the reason I can’t implement the low FODMAP diet is that I rely on a meal delivery service and I’m pretty sure they won’t be able to comply with this complicated a diet. n fact, the dietitian had to choose for me between high fiber and low-calorie, since both wasn’t an option.
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Making a gift for your mom was such a sweet gesture! Did she like the tulip you made? You probably can’t remember now since it was last year!
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I didn’t end up finishing the tulip, but I did send her a dolphin charm.
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