#WeekendCoffeeShare (November 28, 2021)

Hi everyone on this Sunday afternoon. It’s a little less rainy today than it was yesterday, but it’s still cold outside. Today, I’m joining #WeekendCoffeeShare again. As I type this, I am right between my lunch and my afternoon coffee. I can probably offer you a coffee before I finish this post, ha. Let’s have a drink and let’s catch up.

If we were having coffee, I’d share that this week was better than the previous one. Like I said yesterday, my appointment with my nurse practitioner went pretty well and we were able to get to some agreements that will hopefully lead to better treatment for me. For example, I’d struggled to convey in an E-mail how I was struggling two weeks prior and he had asked me to wait for our appt to discuss the matter. That hadn’t sat well with me, so now we agreed that next time he’ll try to call me to further assess the situation.

We also agreed that he would try not to stop me or change the subject if I’m struggling or getting emotional while trying to communicate something. I gave as an example one time when I felt unable to speak and he, possibly not wanting to push me, said: “We don’t have to discuss anything if you don’t want to.” Overall, I feel slightly optimistic about my treatment going forward and I consider that a major win given the desperate state I was in last week.

If we were having coffee, I’d also share that I got some insight into the near-hallucinatory, dysregulated states I occasionally go into at night. My nurse practitioner thinks they might be related to the phase between being fully awake and being asleep. Unfortunately, there’s little to nothing to be done about them, but it feels comforting to know I’m not really “losing my mind”. It also seems, from this idea, unlikely that I’m going to experience these states during the day and really “going crazy”.

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that, unfortunately, I did experience nightmares last night. It’s probably to do with the flashbacks and memories I experienced yesterday. I am so grateful though that the nightmares aren’t affecting me too much now that I’m awake.

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that, thankfully, I’ve also been a little more active lately than I was before. Like I mentioned yesterday, I made a polymer clay unicorn on Thursday. My husband wants to have it. I’ve also been reading more lately. I won’t at all reach my reading goal for the year or even come close to how many books I read last year, but at least I finished another book.

If we were having coffee, lastly I’d ramble a bit about how scared I am because of the rapid rise in COVID cases here in the Netherlands. Today, we’re entering an evening lockdown. Stay-at-home orders have also been extended to recommending people work from home unless it’s not possible, like during the first lockdown in March of last year. I’m scared this will mean the day center closes again. More so though, I’m scared of contracting the virus or even a cold and needing to quarantine in my room. Let’s hope I won’t.

How have you been?

13 thoughts on “#WeekendCoffeeShare (November 28, 2021)

  1. Hello, Astrid. I am in Florida in the United States, and our governor wants everything to keep running no matter what. We had a one month lockdown last year when most other states did. It’s nice that things are open, but troubling that even in schools, mask mandates can no longer be made. (I teach in a middle school). I try not to focus on it, as I know it caused me a lot of anxiety last year. I was vaccinated and sometimes consider the booster, but I’m not sure yet. Take care! -Pamela

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    1. I feel your powerlessness about the situation in your state. Here, our government keeps changing its mind about masks: they were mandated from December last year (so much later than most other countries mandated them) until last July and were only reintroduced a few weeks ago. I am vaccinated thankfully and will soon get my booster shot, as I’m in a care facility (I already signed the consent form and am waiting for the actual shot to get here). All this being said, I do understand you try not to let the anxiety get the better part of you. I try to stay relatively calm about it too.


  2. I’m glad to hear this week was better than the previous one for you. In my province, mask mandate in indoor public spaces has been on throughout this year and until at least next March. Thank you for linking up with #weekendcoffeeshare.

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    1. Oh, I am so glad Ontario isn’t constantly changing its policies regarding mask-wearing. Our government is really handling the pandemic quite poorly. Honestly, it isn’t because of this of course, but it is kind of telling that the Netherlands is pretty high on the list with cases of the new Omicron variant already. Thanks so much for commenting.


  3. Hi Astrid.
    I have too many conflicting thoughts about how governments manage covid. Here in the states, we had blatant managing of the statistics going on where anyone who died of anything was reported as a covid death. Death is always sad enough but to have leaders lie to us about what they died of – – it leaves me breathless in outrage. Now I no longer trust any of what they tell us about how covid is impacting us. I was sorry to hear about your ongoing distress and challenges. I hope your new team finds new insight into how to make you comfortable and get you closer to a normal life of enjoying the season, your friends and family. Even with all the stuff we could complain about, there is plenty to be thankful for.

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    1. Thank you so much for your supportive words. Yes, the way governments manage COVID is weird, but at least I personally couldn’t do it any better way. I indeed have lots to be grateful for and having you point that out, helps me.


  4. I really hope you wont contract covid!
    I hate that its so rampant now! It is over here in ireland too!
    I’m glad you had a good nurse practitioner apt. It sounds as if he took your concerns on bord. thats great.

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    1. I so far haven’t contracted COVID and just got my booster shot, so am glad about that. I am indeed very happy about my nurse practitioner taking my concerns seriously.


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