Where am I going? Where am I even right now? Yes, I am currently at home, writing this blog post. I go to day activities four days a week and spend the rest of the time at home or at my in-laws. I don’t blog nearly as much during the time I’m home as I’d want to.
I know I’m in the process of going into long-term care. It is an incredibly slow-moving process, so I can’t write much about it.
I have developed an interest in reading. I want to be blogging more about books. Not that I want to be a “book blogger”. I still want this blog to remain as eclectic as it has been so far.
But I want to do something with my life other than being in the process of going into long-term care. I don’t mean I want to work a real job or go back to university. Or maybe I do, but I know I can’t. Then at least reading should satisfy that need for doing something with my life.
Maybe I’ll someday pick up crafting again. Soap making or jewelry-making. I tried to make my own melt and pour soap at day activities again last Monday. It went okay. I needed a doable amount of help. Same probably with jewelry-making. At least with making the simple string necklaces I am used to making. They aren’t even bad. But they aren’t something I can blog about.
And as it seems, I’ve dedicated everything I do in life to the purpose of blogging about it. Well, not exactly. Of course I’m not going into long-term care to have a more interesting life to blog about. That seems like something my parents would think, since I did at one point feel like becoming a mother mostly for that purpose.
I can have a much more interesting life if I just live. And if I find joy in what I do. That way, I can help spread positivity. And I hope that by sharing where I’m going with a positive attitude, I can have an influence on the world, or at least the WordPress community. I don’t need to be an “influencer” – such an overused word – to be of influence. I just need to be me.
I am writing this post for Stream of Consciousness Saturday. The prompt this week is “Where”.
A Multitude of Musings 
I know what you mean. I used to do some things just to take pictures so I could make fun scrapbook pages. It was a little joke in our family. But it turned out we did enjoy the activities, such as setting up a Barbie doll wedding or having a mini book fair. And now I have the scrapbooks too. 🙂
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Perhaps you feel a bit in a limbo right now, being in the process of going into the long term care but not yet there and still waiting. I get the thing with blogging. At the very beginnings of my blogging journey, with my previous blogs, and a bit with this one too, I also felt like I should, or wanted, to do some interesting things just so that I’ll have something to blog about. Now sometimes my Dad teases me and when something really intense, whether in a positive or negative sense, happens, he’s like: “Now you’ll have something to blog about”. 😀 I used to think that it would be boring for people to read just about my life, but actually, since I’ve started blogging, I’ve heard from a few people that they find my life very interesting, haha. And now I think it’s much more fun to live just as you live and ideas for blog posts will come on their own if you really want it. 🙂 That also makes you more real.
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Yes, I think you’re correct about me being in limbo a bit.
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Just being you is the best calling ever, some people never pull it off, but you can!
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Astrid:
love what you said about influence and influencers!
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wishing you a day filled with smiles. 🙂
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Just do you! Do what comes naturally! Your already doing it!
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