Hi everyone. I’m once again joining #WeekendCoffeeShare. It’s 7:40PM as I start typing this post, so I’ll soon take a break for my evening soft drink and chips. I made a smoothie for myself and my fellow residents about an hour ago. It was good. I used frozen mango, pear, flaxseed and soy milk. Feel free to grab a virtual cup yourself (I’m pretty sure the real smoothie has all been consumed). Let’s have a drink and let’s catch up.
If we were having coffee, first I’d talk about the weather. For most of the week, we had daytime temperatures around 18°C. We also had rain, wind and some thunderstorms.
If we were having coffee, next I’d tell you that this week, the institution’s four-day evening walking event was held. That is, two out of four walks were canceled because of a code yellow weather warning for thunderstorms. On Thursday and Friday, the walk did go on, but we were soaked in rain on Thursday.
If we were having coffee, I’d share that I’m still going strong with my movement goal on my Apple Watch despite the weather. I’m not meeting my exercise goal each day, as sometimes the weather only permits one short walk, but apparently it’s still easy enough to burn 300 active calories each day. I am currently only 1kg overweight, by the way, which is why it kind of surprises me I still meet my goal relatively easily.
If we were having coffee, I’d tell you my week has been hard in other respects. Early in the week, I needed support during the night, waited patiently for a staff to make his way from the main building to me only to find out later on he’d been spending ten minutes putting away dangerous objects from the living room before seeing me even though there hadn’t been a reason to think I’d use them. I heard him rummaging about in the living room, so asked what was going on, thinking maybe it was a fellow client. He said it’d been him, the night staff. “And it’s night, so please go to sleep.”
A few nights ago, I did go to the kitchen and pulled out scissors but didn’t use them. This prompted the night staff to request the kitchen be locked at night again because of the time it takes the staff to make their way here. This request could’ve been reasonable (if a little overboard), if not for the fact that the kitchen only has a gate, not a full-size door. This means I can easily climb over the gate using a chair, causing a fall risk that in my opinion outweighs the risk of me self-harming using one of the objects in the kitchen. Besides, if you want to eliminate every risk of a client self-harming, well, you’d need to drug them up and tie them down. This question, whether clients need to be kept safe from harm at any cost, has been on my mind a lot. As much as I cling to life itself though, surviving is meaningless if my quality of life is poor.
This same issue came up on Wednesday when I saw the physical therapist. She’d recommended I start using a rollator walker. I’m not altogether against it, although I did say so when she came by with it, but that’s more because she claims she won’t do anything for me unless I start using the walker. The reason I’m leaning towards rejecting it for now is the fact that with it being incompatible with a white cane, it’d lead to even further dependence on non-disabled people than I already experience. I know it’d theoretically at least cause me to walk more safely, but the only times I’ve fallen over the past year have been times I didn’t wear my orthopedic footwear for one reason or another (usually because it was at the repair shop yet again). The physical therapist keeps saying nothing can be improved about the footwear, promised me an extra pair of shoes but never got to actually making sure I’d get one and is now saying I shouldn’t walk as much as I do. She isn’t giving me any alternatives to walking either. This and other things make me believe the professionals’ feelings about risk are more important than my feelings about my quality of life.
If we were having coffee, I’d share that I’m stressing quite a bit over the divorce. The final appointment with the mediator was supposed to be last Tuesday but got postponed a week for practical reasons. I’ll also have a meeting with the client confidante, my assigned staff and the behavior specialist on the same day. I try to separate the divorce from my care situation. However, the fact remains I’ll be literally homeless without the care home from this coming Tuesday on.
If we were having coffee, finally I’d share that I was on the phone with my wife between my evening soft drink and finishing this post. I told her I’d been making smoothies. Then we got talking about blogs. My wife joked that mine isn’t juicy enough for the divorce mediator to read, so I replied that I’d have to share smoothie recipes to make it juicier. That made her laugh out loud.
A Multitude of Musings 