September Dreams and Memories

Posted on by Astrid

Last night I dreamt of being admitted to the psych hospital. It’s no wonder, since the anniversary of my actual admission isn’t very far away, on November 3. September 23 is my anniversary of going into long-term care and last Wednesday, I celebrated one year in my current care home.

I was reminded yesterday that September is a bittersweet month. That is, I was reminded of the sweet aspect, ie. it being me and my spouse’s wedding aniversary yesterday. The bitter aspect has overshadowed my days with flashbacks and my nights with dreams more than I’d like. I am, thankfully, still coping.

I am hoping that, as I acquire more pleasant memories here at this home, the flashbacks and nightmares will lessen. I know I was saying something similar when reclaiming November in 2021. I hope this time around I will choose following my dreams and aspirations over re-enacting the past.

Sharing this post with Friday Writings #145, for which the optional theme is dreams and memories. This was more of a freewrite than anything else, but oh well.

19 thoughts on “September Dreams and Memories”

  2. I do hope the flashbacks come to an end, they can make living in the here and now difficult and the here and now is where we need to be. All we can is take it one slow and steady step at a time and ask God to guide as through our journey of life

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  7. I was discussing sadness or grief anniversaries with a family member. They can be really hard, but yes, one of the best thing to do is make some good memories to mix the bitter and the sweet.

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