What If I Disappoint God? #Write28Days

Welcome to my first post in the #Write28Days blogging challenge. This challenge is an offshoot from the original #Write31Days challenge that used to be done every October until 2018. I only found out about #Write28Days a few weeks ago. Thankfully, you’re not required to pick a topic. The goal is just to write everyday during February. And this is my first post. I don’t have a landing page, as I used to forget to update those. However, if you click on the #Write28Days tag, you should be taken to my other posts.

I originally intended to write my challenge posts on faith, then realized I, being a new Christian, may not be able to devote 28 posts to this topic. But for today, something definitely came to mind: the feeling that I’ll disappoint God.

I was converted to Christianity in early December of 2020. Before that, I’d sort of believed in God, but never understood the essence of the Christian faith. I felt incredibly alone, thinking I was a very wicked person on the inside. The thing is, I thought I was the only one.

Then my husband showed me the book You Are Beloved by Bobby Schuller. I started reading and thought that, oh yes, God loves people, but not me. I still felt I was somehow more sinful than other human beings. And at the same time, I wanted to combat this feeling by believing I am good enough without Jesus. Well, I’m not. And that’s okay, because neither is anyone else.

The question, then, becomes not what if I disappoint God? I already do. Yet I’m not alone. Everyone has their imperfections, after all. The Bible calls them sin. Yet through Jesus’ death on the cross, we are forgiven.

Yesterday, through a Bible reading plan on the YouVersion Bible app, I read Mark 10 and 11. In Mark 10, Jesus tells a rich man to sell all his possessions and give the money to the poor and then to follow him. He may or may not have literally meant for the rich man to sell everything, but he did mean we need to let go of something in order to follow Jesus and gain eternal life. After all, the Ten Commandments tell us not to have idols. That doesn’t just mean other gods, but other things we pursue in life besides God. The author of the plan, in fact, had to let go of his pride. And in a way, so do I.

God, thank you for showing me your presence in life. Thank you for loving me despite my imperfections. Help me overcome my self-righteous sense of pride. Help me realize that, like every human being, I am powerless over my sin. Help me draw closer to You through your only begottn Son. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

16 thoughts on “What If I Disappoint God? #Write28Days

  1. amen! Praise God there is NONE righteous, no not one ( Romans 3:10) but the gift of God is eternal life (Romans 3:23). He gives exactly what we NEED…a Savior because we are not good enough, He is! Love your testimony and praying for you as you navigate this new season with Jesus. Glad I found your post through #write28days link up!

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  2. Oh, this is such a beautiful testimony! 🙂 Even as Christians, we try to be good but fall short from time to time. God will love us no matter what! Our God is merciful and gracious, and will love us no matter what! Thank you so much for sharing with us!

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  3. Beautiful! You’re right, none of us is good enough, but thank God we don’t have to be, because Jesus took our punishment and sacrificed Himself for our sins. But now He lives and interceded for us. What a blessing that He is our Savior and He always forgives us. We are safe in His hands and nothing can separate us from His love! Blessings to you, Astrid!

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  4. I look forward to following you in this series, Astrid. The more you learn about Christians, the better you’ll feel about yourself as one. 🙂 We’re all so flawed. Thankfully God doesn’t count that against us. He loves us as we are. That’s the beautiful thing about grace.

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