#WeekendCoffeeShare (November 15, 2020)

Hi everyone! How are you doing? Today I’m joining in with #WeekendCoffeeShare. I just had my afternoon coffee, but there’s still plenty left for you all. We also have various flavors of tea and there’s cold water in the fridge I think. Let’s have a drink and let’s catch up.

If we were having coffee, I’d share that this week was a rather rough one. I am already feeling slightly better now though. I’m still struggling to keep busy when I’m alone, but it’s okay.

If we were having coffee, I would tell you that the weather is pretty mild for november. It’s raining some of the time, but it’s also sunny some of the time and it’s pretty warm for this time of the year, roughly 15°C.

If we were having coffee, I would be proud to tell you that I got in over 65K steps this week so far. That’s a record! I’m probably still going for another walk this evening, so I may break my active heartrate zone minutes record of last week according to my Fitbit too.

If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I’m so immensely grateful for the extra supports my staff put in place for me. Like I mentioned earlier in the week, I was extremely depressed earlier and was seeing no way I could manage at this care home or in this world as a whole for that matter. Thankfully, I got some one-on-one support in the evenings, which are the hardest for me.

I did feel some pressure when a staff said she hoped that in a few weeks, I would not need as much support. This caused me some considerable anxiety, as I worried I’d be kicked out of this home if I didn’t improve in a few weeks. The staff didn’t mean it that way though.

If we were having coffee, lastly I would tell you that my husband came by yesterday. We drove for a bit and then went for a short nature walk. My husband had also brought me some apple pie his father had baked for his birthday. I did struggle to eat it properly whilst in the car, which I felt intense shame about. My husband was okay with it though.

12 thoughts on “#WeekendCoffeeShare (November 15, 2020)

  1. Hi Astrid.

    I’m glad you checked in today. It’s always a better weekend for us when you do.
    Anyway– 65+K steps . . .? Wow! And I do mean Wow! That is amazing and you make me look lame because on a good day, I get maybe 5K despite loving to walk, I just don’t do it enough. My job almost can’t be done unless I’m sitting in front of my laptop and it takes a toll to be sure.

    I’m sorry to hear that you had a rough week though. Given your situation, you really do depend on your staff. I’d like to encourage you somehow, but I’m very far away and don’t want to presume that I understand what it is like living as you do.

    How about this point? Even those of us who don’t live as you do, but work in one (as my daughter does) are human and she tells me often both of peers who either go beyond their job description to deliver amazing care and some who drop the ball and just don’t try hard enough or get tired or have a bad day at home and end up bringing a bad attitude to their job where their residents suffer or enjoy the quality of their care.

    It’s capricious and unfair, but even normal family life can be like this. My daughter is an amazing care giver who is now trying to get into medical school and is not wasting time now with her responsibilities to her residents, but I live with her. I know she has her up and down days. I guess, I’m suggesting that you not get too focused on any one staffer’s words because maybe they are just having a bad day and you might find a chance to care for them instead by thanking them for something they did right that brought you comfort or joy. My daughter comes home beaming when one of her residents thanks her in some way because they too have little ability to control their days and depend on her for their care and comfort.

    Anyway, it’s just an idea. I can tell you that she loves her job despite the low pay and limited funding they have to take care of their residents, but it really does give her a huge smile when one of them says ‘thank you’.

    Thanks for stopping by for a visit. Chat next week I hope and I hope you have a wonderful week.

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind words! Yes, I do try to show gratitude towards my staff. This staff might’ve indeed not felt very well, I don’t know. Also, she meant to say that she hopes in a few weeks I feel well enough to cope with less one-on-one.


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