It’s been forever since I last took part in Currently. That’s partly because the day coincides with the Insecure Writer’s Support Group posting day and partly because I cannot always think of much to say to the prompts. Today though, I’m feeling like writing and the prompts appealed to me.
Choosing
To take an Ativan to avert yet another crisis. Well, not quite avert, as it was already happening. I’m safe and relatively calm now that the Ativan has had about an hour to kick in.
Consuming
Banana chips and grated coconut. I bought a bag of both at a wellness store yesterday. Consumed all the banana chips in one sitting and put some of the coconut in my smoothie. Today, I actually ate some of the coconut as is.
Enjoying
Reading, of course. I spend a lot of the time with my face in a book, figuratively speaking, as I use my Braille display to read books on.
Add to my reading experience some calming music, for example a Robbins Island Music Group album, and some essential oil. I bought two essential oil blends at the wellness store yesterday and particularly love the one called Joy. The other one was called something like Sleep Well, so I may be able to use that tonight.
Ordering
Not anything right now, but the shoes I ordered last Monday, did arrive today. They’re brown with pink walking boots and I love them. I tried to explain to my husband what I’d ordered and he kept coming up with walking boots that cost like €200. Makes me feel I got quite a bargain, as mine cost €80. Of course, that’s still a lot of money.
Remembering
That no-one promised me a rose garden. I need to remind myself of this, because I seem to be dealing with a lot of fear of joy lately, as well as having a big case of “the grass is always greener on the other side” with respect to living situations. Maybe I just need to accept that the care facility I live in now isn’t perfect, but it’s as good as it’s going to get. This issue may be one reason I spiraled into crisis today.
How have you been?
A Multitude of Musings 
I like banana chips. I don’t have them often though. A neighbour bought me some about a week ago. It had been a year I think before last having any before.
I have been stressed. Fed up with evening job. I am just drained and since this afternoon, I just couldn’t walk the pace I would walk. Glad to be home now and going to bed soon.
But boss is supportive with us all. So I remind myself of that.
I hope I have energy tomorrow, as walking a lot tomorrow.
I have treated myself to second hand dvd’s. They all came today. So something new to watch and look forward to.
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It’s been a long while since I had banana chips too before yesterday. I find they’re pretty expensive and not terribly healthy either.
Sorry you’re stressed. Have fun with your DVDs though.
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Yes, reason why I don’t have them often. Best to go fresh. But good to have a treat.
I shall have fun with the dvd’s. Definitely start watching this weekend, if I don’t before.
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Have fun indeed. I’m sure you’ll enjoy the DVDs.
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Thank you.
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I think I’m unsure of joy. It only comes once in awhile. But when it does its awesome.
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Oh yeah, I get that. Moments of pure joy are so rare.
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I haven’t had any banana chips for a long time. Glad you like your new shoes, happy feet are a good thing!
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Thanks. Yes, I’m really glad I finally have shoes that aren’t falling apart or hurting my feet.
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Thanks for joining in! It’s nice to hear how you’re doing, that you’re exploring how to be open to joy in the midst of crisis. I always love some reading and calming music, and lately I have been trying restorative yoga in the evenings – it would be very nice in combination with the essential oils for further relaxation, I bet!
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Thanks for commenting. I’ve tried yoga at times too, as well as mindfulness. The essential oils definitely do help.
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I always benefit from any sort of physical activity when I am nervous – yoga is such a help to me right now with my anxiety. Another blogger I read has been playing different ambient videos with her reading, like rain or the ocean and that might be worth a try too. I thought it sounded really nice. Your boots sound cute!
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Thanks so much for stopping by. Yes, I think soothing sounds with my reading would be a good idea.
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That’s great you’ve been reading a lot. It’s something that tends to make me happy/calm me down too. I’m sorry you had a bit of a crisis though – I’m glad the medicine helped and I hope you continue to feel better! I know mental health is a bit up and down though.
-Lauren
http://www.shootingstarsmag.net
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Thanks for commenting. Yes, mental health can be a tough thing, but I’m happy for books to comfort me.
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