Today’s prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday (#SoCS) is “my year”. I don’t usually review my year until December 30 or 31 and, since this post is supposed to be stream-of-consciousness, I cannot do it now either. That being said, I can write down what my year reminds me of.
I am first reminded of the fact that I’ve been tapering my medication since the beginning of the year and am now 10mg down with my antipsychotic and completely off my topiramate. The taper could’ve gone faster had I not landed in crisis just before my first antipsychotic taper and had the behavior specialist not subsequently decided to do the “minute-effing”, by which I would have to compensate for every minute I was in distress during my unsupported time by having less support at my next moment.
The year also reminds me of my continual attempts to get actually reasonably good care, after that system of minute-by-minute compensating was abandoned in late March. I sometimes feel like I could’ve come across like a very hungry caterpillar, but so what? I don’t purposefully experience distress, as the powers-that-be used to think.
I’m also reminded that this is the first full year since 2021 that I didn’t move. Back in 2021, I told my care plan review that I was 95% sure that I wanted to stay in Raalte, but hardly a year after that, I was gone. I resolve for 2025 not to repeat the same mistake.
Overall, 2024 started tough but things have improved ever since. I can’t go into every detail of what I was struggling with in early 2024 and let me just hope and pray that 2025 won’t be the same. That is, improvement is always welcome, of course, but let’s hope and pray that early 2025 won’t bring a setback.
A Multitude of Musings 
I do hope your 2025 will be a great year for you! Fingers crossed!
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Thanks! I really hope so too.
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Over all 2024 has been a decent enough year for me, Tim was able to return to walk after having around 16 months off after his accident. I have became more mobile and more like me and less like someone wandering around lost in a fog.
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That’s good to hear that you’ve become more mobile and experienced less fogginess.
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Glad to hear you’re in a reasonable place now. It’s hard to be in distress, especially when those around won’t believe it.
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Thanks for validating me. Yes, being in distress is hard and it’s harder wen those around me believe I’m just this way or that I’m doing it on purpose.
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I’m glad you had positive success in this year.
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Thank you. I’m happy about it too.
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You’re welcome
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I am glad the year has gone better as it’s gone on.
Wishing you all the best for 2025. I hope it’s a good year for you. x
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Thanks so much. I really hope 2025 will be a good year for you too.
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I hope you and your spouse have a wonderful New Year! Does your home hold any kind of a celebration until midnight?
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Thank you. No, no fireworks or the like and though we tried watching the New Year’s cabaret performance, it was quite uninteresting. We were just chilling out and having some treats.
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Still, sounds like a nice way to ring in the new year.
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It was, thank you!
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