Today, Sadje’s Sunday Poser is about your rock in the storm. Who or what keeps you going when the times are tough?
For now, I could – should, maybe – easily say it’s my faith. I became a Christian last year and feel very much comforted knowing that, in the end, it’ll be okay. Not in this life, mind you. Jesus never promised us that there would not be any obstacles in this earthly life for us. Quite the opposite, in fact. We will still physically die and the Bible doesn’t promise Christians any easier end to their earthly life than non-believers. But in the end, in the Kingdom of God, it will be okay.
However, like I said, I didn’t become a believer until last year. I did kind of believe in “something” for many years, but that didn’t quite amount to much. So what kept me going until I started following Christ?
I guess the answer is as simple as the one above, and somewhat related too: hope. I always kept hope alive that, in the end, things would be okay. Even in the darkest depths of my suicidal crisis in 2007, there must’ve been a reason I in fact called my support worker to say goodbye rather than just killing myself without informing anyone. I felt, deep down, that there was still a way out of my darkness, even if I didn’t know what it was right at that moment.
At the time, my rescuers were the crisis service people in my parents’ city, who proposed I get admitted to the mental hospital.
That being said, I’ve never really felt that specific people are my rock in the storm. I mean, of course I appreciate my husband supporting me through everything. However, as unlikely as it is, I always have at the back of my mind the possibility that I’ll lose him at some point. That’s a residual effect of my having had very little stability in my life.
However, hope has always kept me going. It is interesting in this respect that most people who superficially know me, see me as a pessimist. I might look at things from a negative angle most of the time, but when it ultimately comes to it, I always have hope.
Keep faith and hope
Michel ❤
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I certainly will. Thank you.
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Beautiful post Astrid
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Thank you! 🙂
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There is a certain peacefulness in faith.
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There definitely is! 🙂
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I don’t find you pessimistic. It seems to me that you usually find something positive about your day x
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Thank you for saying that. That means a lot.
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Thanks Astrid for sharing your thoughts. I think hope is akin to faith as we believe that things will get better!
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I agree. Thank you so much for commenting.
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You’re welcome
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Nice post Astrid. I am not religious but when I get anxious I do tend to calm myself by turning it over to the higher power. Apart from that I go to the barn and see my horse. I know it sounds odd but he understands when I worried or low or just off trim.
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That doesn’t sound odd at all, horses can definitely sense our feelings. Thanks so much for sharing.
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I am glad you have hope. I do too. Its great your faith gets you through the dark times. 🙂
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Thank you. I am so happy hope keeps you going too.
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