Gratitude List (October 17, 2020) #TToT

Hello everyone! I hope you’re doing well. I am feeling okay. I’m not sure I’ll continue with the #Blogtober20 prompts, but I will attempt to publish a post everyday anyway. That’s a way of participating in the challenge too. Today, I am writing a gratitude list. As always, I’m joining in with Ten Things of Thankful (#TToT).

1. I am grateful I am alive. Last week, I was in a major crisis. Though I most likely would’ve survived the attempt at harming myself I was intending on, I am so grateful I didn’t harm myself at all.

2. I am grateful for my staff. They’ve been so nice and helpful lately. They aren’t mental health professionals, but they do a great job of helping me understand why I’m feeling overloaded or anxious.

3. I am grateful that my husband supports me through it all. Like I said last week, I was afraid he’d be frustrated with me for landing in crisis. I am so glad that he didn’t react with irritation at all, even though I’d have understood.

4. I had some delicious treats over the week. On Tuesday, a staff gave us cheesecake for her birthday. There was still some left over on Wednesday too. We also got banana bread then. Then on Friday, we had delicious home-cooked chicken with curry and mayonaise. Today we had homemade chicken and sausage rolls.

5. My mother-in-law visited me on Thursday. We went for a walk and drank a cup of coffee in my room. She also brought me a new bra.

6. I am happy with my new Fitbit Inspire 2. I ordered it on Thursday and it arrived Friday early afternoon. I am loving seeing all my stats in the Fitbit app. For example, yesterday I got 56 minutes in active heartrate zones, all in the fat burning zone of course. I doubt I’ll be able to get into the cardio or peak zone at all.

The tracker itself takes some getting used to, since it has a touch screen, which I can’t see. I keep accidentally turning Do Not Disturb on.

7. I am grateful for relatively good food for dinner. As of last month, I am allowed to choose between a selection of meals for dinner. Before this, I had to turn off foods I didn’t like. This got pretty complicated. For example, I’d say I didn’t like beans because otherwise I’d get them with just potatoes and meat and no sauce. However, turning off beans would turn off chilli too. This led to me occasionally getting just rice, for example. Now I still occasionally get a meal I haven’t picked, but that’s okay too.

8. I am grateful for macrogol. And for apples and other fiber-rich foods. I had been constipated for a bit early in the week, which led to bad bowel cramps. Thankfully, I feel much better now.

9. I am grateful the partial lockdown we’re in right now doesn’t lead to a no-visitors policy in care facilities as of yet. I am grateful I am still allowed to go home to my husband.

10. I am grateful for the ability to be grateful. I started a daily gratitude journal in the app Day One on Wednesday. I did so because I downloaded a free book on gratitude off Amazon and the first exercise is to jot down three things you’re grateful for each evening for a week. It truly helps me so far, as without my gratitude journal to look back on, I may not have been able to get to ten things of thankful.

What have you been grateful for lately?

19 thoughts on “Gratitude List (October 17, 2020) #TToT

  1. I’m so glad you didn’t harm yourself. I know sometimes it takes a lot not to do it when you very much feel like doing it, but that’s why it’s even more of an achievement when you manage not to harm yourself.
    It feels good to be grateful for the ability of being grateful. 🙂 I used to do something similar a few years ago where I’d write one or more things I was grateful for every evening, I called it nice things journal. It was my Mum’s idea and she did it too. I really liked it.

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      1. Huh, now I am actually wondering myself. 😀 I remember having some bad depression around the end of the year and beginning of the next year and perhaps that was the reason why I lost motivation with it, combined with that I no longer felt obliged to do it as we both obliged ourselves to do it for a year. And later on I probably just forgot about the habit, the more that Mum also stopped doing it. But now I think I may go back to it.

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  2. I’m glad you are alive, too, and that you didn’t harm yourself. I always enjoy reading your posts. Thanks for joining the Ten Things of Thankful blog hop again this week! Hope this coming week is a good one for you. 🙂

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  3. I am glad that you are doing better now. It is good that your husband understands you so well and is so supportive. How nice that the staff spreads the birthday joy by sharing her cheesecake.
    Yes to #10, the ability to be grateful by writing in a gratitude journal truly is a blessing.
    Glad you linked up to TToT and hope you have a great week ahead.

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  4. It is good to ‘read’ you again.

    And good to hear that you weathered a storm. It helps everyone (at least many of the people I know) to hear that a person has been through a dark time and found their way out the other side. It (this benefit) is not about the darkness but about finding the strength to find one’s way out to the light.

    Thanks for sharing that.

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  5. Such a beautiful piece, Astrid! And I’m so glad that you didn’t hurt yourself. I’ve been there too. I was horribly bullied in school after I moved to a small town. I’d been an Army brat and had lived all over and the kids at the new school didn’t like out-of-staters. I attempted suicide and almost didn’t make it. Today, I have a totally different outlook. I’m grateful for my husband and children, my mother, my few closest friends, and that I’m still here! And I have no doubt that things are going to look up for you because you have so much going for you. Thank you so much for this post. It really put a smile on my face. 😀

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